Sun was now somewhere in the heart of the firmament, obviously I don’t love the Sun that much but want to mention time, It looks like literary !! My room mates stirred up till now and found me awake, not the new thing to discern about. It’s one from my customary passionate wild practices I had in me, so I was mistreated,
And me ???? I was still judging again and again those sent messages. With no statutory but emotional reason was trying to keep my mind out of it. Every transitory second was slaughtering me with most of its vigor inside that pumping machine, I have within me. Is she going to retort?? Or she is not any longer interested to even snoop me, now believes were getting more and more negative. Is she not a morsel interested in me? .............
I kept my phone revolving in my palms and thinking about it, precisely not thinking but bawling inside about it without showing this to my friends because this becomes womanly, and I am the one who really wishes to cry in alone. The male sense of self, can’t even let you cry what the sick rule is this? I followed it as it was and I started smiling at it, slashing inside me.
And me ???? I was still judging again and again those sent messages. With no statutory but emotional reason was trying to keep my mind out of it. Every transitory second was slaughtering me with most of its vigor inside that pumping machine, I have within me. Is she going to retort?? Or she is not any longer interested to even snoop me, now believes were getting more and more negative. Is she not a morsel interested in me? .............
Bullshit!! why don’t I give her a call asking about it, if she hadn’t noticed my messages then, May be she is not going to reply me even then. The wrestling of thoughts was going harder in my mind and my balls were trailing out of restlessness and I was like pissing inside my pants. So I impatiently picked my phone and clogged, what if she denies? But still my intolerance was a lot greater than above all and I dialed 98xx9xxx65. Yes in just few days I am remembering her number though.
It connected and her phone was busy. Now!!!! So she had become aware of all the messages and didn’t respond me. All clashes within me ended, with immense heartbreak which I even heeded hard than any voice, now? She is not at all responsive as I wrote to be in one of those messages. She is not affirmative she even didn’t want me around so she is not going to reply.
I kept my phone revolving in my palms and thinking about it, precisely not thinking but bawling inside about it without showing this to my friends because this becomes womanly, and I am the one who really wishes to cry in alone. The male sense of self, can’t even let you cry what the sick rule is this? I followed it as it was and I started smiling at it, slashing inside me.
Why you are smiling and doing entire night? Aabhar questioned. (My roommate)
I kept mute and went out in balcony and dialed for a second time. This occasion it rang and she answered this call
I kept mute and went out in balcony and dialed for a second time. This occasion it rang and she answered this call
HMMM ... this is the expression which I use to glade my throat when I found myself astounded, freeze and blank mind.
HI. How are you?
And I asked her straight away: Have you read those messages?
What was that, what are you up to and, what’s the surprise? she Questioned!!
Hey don’t think too much you will find it nice.
Where are you? I replied !!
I am at Janakpuri for my exam.
It was at 10 am and it’s yet not started so I am waiting outside. She retorted !!
Can I see you today? I asked !!
In the mean time, she was called inside the examination center and phone disconnected.
I still am in the same crawling within !!!!
Fingers crossed, result awaited !!!
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